Book1:TeDream-Maker
tudeandbecameaic.Iwasstruckbythesimiritybetweenus.Theretioweenhimandhiscellisthesameasthatbetweenmyfleshbodyandfate.Onlyhisassiveandimposedonhim,whileminewasactivelyimposedonmyselfofmyownfreewill.Iwillinglyboundmyfleshbodysothatitwouldnotdoanythingmorallyoutoftracktoatoneforyoursins,Amalia.” “Amalia,myattitudetowardsfateislikethatofwater,whichflowsoverthesurfaceoftheearth,huggingtheriseandfalloftheterrainwithoutpromisingitsownnature.Ifitmeetswithobstacles,itwillstop,detourandtakeah;butwillstilltinueflowingtowardsitsdestination.Obedierebellious,thatisthesecretofgwithfate,heractivenorpassive.Thismayseemobscure,butinmylife,theyarepatibleandexistinperfectharmony.Inmyobservationsofthechimpanzee,Irealizedthathehadgivenuprebellionandhisownfreewill.Hebowedtothefutilityofresistandsowasnolongerrebellious.Hiseyesweredocilebutsly.Tomakethebestofabaddeandfindjoyamidhardship,hepyedpracticaljokesonhumans.Iwouldliketoreverttoman’snaturalprimitiveeaurntotheanimalstatewewereinbeforeevolution.ThatdoesnotmeanIwouldgosofarastomasturbateinpubliclikethechimpahatisimpossiblebecausemillionsofyearsofcivilizationhadpassedandIainstfateasthhlyashe.SoIhaveshapedmyownattitudetowardsfatelikethetheoryofwater,geamebuttenacious.Yourattitude,Amalia,istheexactopposite.Youwerelikefire,untrolbleaating.Thatisthemaindiffereweenyouandme.Oh,Amalia,tellmehowIatoneforyoursins." BythehaddispersedandthebrightsunlightshiningstraightonhimmadeDimitri,whohadfullyrecoveredfromhishangover,feeldizzy.Helookedupattheva