Book1:TeDream-Maker

atloveandlustweretwopletelydifferentthingsandshehadmarriedforlove．Butastimepassed，shegraduallybecameawareofsomethingmissing．Trueandpureastheirlovewas，itwasonlyamirage,gthedown-to-earthloveoftheflesh．Shecouldnolongerbesatisfiedwithansthesizeofalittlefinger．Ikeuoodandcametothepainfuldecisionthatitwasunnaturaltodenyherhealthybody．Heallowedhertohaveaffairswithothermen．Atfirst,Elinaagreed,buteverytimeshecamebackafterferociousandtempestuouslove-making，herhungerfullysatisfied，shewasstruckwithasenseofguiltandremorse．ThepaininIke’seyes,whichhetriedsohardtoceal,waslikeakuherheart．Theyfellintoeachothersarms,g．Therepetitionofthissebecameanightmareuntiltheyfeltthattotihisretionshipwascrueltobothofthemanddecidedonseparatioheirfeelings．Theypartedamicably，stillverymulove，andtonightIketoldherhisdecision—divorce．Elihathermarriagewasnotamistake；herwasherdivorce．Loveandlustcouldbeseparate．Loveiritualintercoursebetweentwopeople．EverytimeshewaswithIkeaaloveforhim,itbroughtitsownfulfillment,pleteinitself,withouttheneedforphysitimacy;justasapletelysatisfyingsexualintercoursesometimeshasnoneedforspirituallove．Elinasattherelookinglostandpensive．

    5

    "Duringtheyearofseparation，ImyeyesonanothermanbecauseIwaoremainfaithfultoIke,eventhoughheallowedmetohaveaffairs．YouseeIstilllovehim，orIwouldn’tkeephispictureomyheart．Buttrarytomyexpectations，Ikehasgedpletelyduringthisyearofseparationintothegaymanyoujustsaw．Todayheotonlytotellmeofhisdecisionforadivorce,butalsoofhispnsforasexualtransformationintoaw